Duck- And Cover

I know this is sorta late, but I saw it yesterday and thought it’d be a fun challenge.
So here’s to catching up:

Day 1: Hopes, Dreams, and plans for the next 365 days.
Hopes, Dreams and Plans. Well, for this ‘year’ I just want to work on ‘self improvement. I want to be able to be comfortable with who I am, because in a little over a year and a half…I’ll be off to college. Be Free. I’m not sure I’m ready for that, so I’m using this year to get ready for that. 
I want to beat this stupid procrastination and teach myself that if I put my mind to it, I can do anything. And that’s my biggest goal to achieve.
I want to be a healthier, more confident person. ♥

Day 2: Something that’s illegal, but you think should be legal.
How about somethings that’s legal, that might be illegal, but I want to stay legal? In that case, SOPA. The internet is the internet. Go Away.

Day 3: What you think your reason for being here is.
To make people happy. That sounds stupid and cliche, but I never really put myself first. I go out of the way for the happiness of people I care about. Even though I don’t always succeed, if my friends upset. It bugs me wayy too much.

Day 4: How you think your life would change if you achieved your dream.
My dream is to act, to be apart of that crazy, insane world. If I ever achieve that, my life would never be the same. Yet, then again. My life is completely different than it was a year ago, so just a slight shift changes it.

Day 5: Something you would change about the world.
I would teach people that they have to learn to make their own happiness. They can’t let the rest of the world suck out their happiness, because that is something that should always be at the top of your agenda. If you aren’t happy, you can’t be anything else.

Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself.
I wish I was more confident.

Day 7: A show or a movie that has changed you, and how.
Online Show? How about the ShayTards on Youtube. I can not express how they have changed my life. How they taught me happiness and that you can conquer anything you put your mind too. They taught me that those kinds of happy families do really exist out there. <3

Day 8: Things that make you sad.
Don’t even get me started. ;)

Day 9: Things that make you happy.
The simplest things really. Stripes, Blue, little kids. It’s a mixture of everything and anything. 

Day 10: What you think when you hear the words “be yourself”.
Impossible. People are always standing guard to ruin it.

Day 11: The worst advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given.
“If you do your homework, you’ll get straight A’s.”

Day 12: The best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given.
“Happiness is a Choice.”

Day 13: Your favorite quote.
Hakuna Matata. <3

Day 14: Write about something you believe in, anything at all
 

Day 15: A song that makes you cry and why.
I miss you - First Lady, Beautiful Girls - Sean Kingston  

Day 16: Someone you trust.
My sister(s). Biological and the ones I’ve found along the way. With every ounce of my being. 

Day 17: Your idol and why you look up to them.
Shay Carl. Because the guys a genius.  

Day 18: Why you made your blog, why you still have it.
Sorta like a diary of my goals and to keep track of what I want in life. You know, that kind of thing.

Day 19: Your thoughts on your family.
Their crazy and dysfunctional. But hell, I love them.

Day 20: What you think makes someone beautiful.
*Que “What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction”
Personality, Tolerance, and Grammar. 

PS. Sorry this is so long. I had to catch up. They will be better next time. ;) 

While at Target a few weeks ago, my friend was looking for a birthday card for her mother. While scampering through the aisles, we came across a section of Valentine’s Day cards. Now keep in mind, this is late December. So being my loud obnoxious self, I exclaimed, “Umm, it’s December. Why the HECK are their Valentine’s Day cards here? It’s more than a month away!” My friend laughed while she shrugged her shoulders (she’s used to my awkward personality by now). Meanwhile, an elder lady crosses past the aisle that I was yelling at and says, “My Oh My, these stores warn us of the holidays far too soon!” We discuss this ‘situation’ for a few moments and went our separate ways.
Later on in a different part of the store, I walk past the lady again, and she says hello to me as I do the same. By about 30 feet after my friend and I had passed her, I turn around and yelled, “HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!” to her, she laughed and yelled, “HAPPY HALLOWEEN!” right back at me.
Now it’s weird, but having this little memory to hold onto makes me happy. I made that woman, whom I will never see again, laugh. Me and my friend found ourselves cracking up about it for the rest of the day!
I’ve come to find that I’m not exactly ‘shy’ when it comes to strangers. If someone calls my phone with the wrong number, I’m perfectly fine talking with them for a few minutes and trying to help ‘redirect’ their phone call. My mother on the other hand just hangs up.
However, when I’m at school. I constantly fear being judged. I’ve always wanted to be confident, but I find myself being brought back down by a ‘frenemy’. I don’t speak up in class, most of the time because I’m ashamed of knowing the answer or getting it wrong. I don’t understand why, but it happens. And I want to change that.
After watching MeghanRosette, ShayLoss, and a Katilette’s videos on YouTube, I’m coming to realize that after high school…none of these people are going to matter anymore. So why should I pull myself down and be miserable, when I can just be myself without a care in the world?
Katilette made a goal for this week to, “talk with one new person a day, whether it be at school, work, anywhere” so I’m going to do the same. I’m going to plan to talk with one new person each day in school until at least next Wednesday, and on the weekends I’m going to say hello to strangers where ever I may be.  
I don’t know if it will change anything, but hey! It’s a start, right? 

With this fresh new year, I’ve wanted to create goals that I can follow.
You know, New Year Resolutions and such.
I’ve decided that my goals aren’t working as well as I’d hoped.
So I decided that I’m going to start ‘blogging’ my way to success. 
At least one year of blogs.
Not everyday of course, I do have to fit in a life somewhere in there…
But at least 3-4 times a week. :) 

As far as creating goals….
I don’t want to do it normally, because normal is far too over rated.
I decided that with each new week, I’m going to create a goal for myself.
Might it be eating at least 1 super healthy food a day, or finishing my homework on time everyday that week or taking my dog on a walk everyday. 
I don’t care what it is right now, I just know that I need to change my havoc lifestyle before I explode of awkwardness.
So this is how I shall go forth.
Let the games begin….